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I did realize from a very early age, say, younger than 6, that the white go-go boots were for girls only. Or the black, as the case may be. And somewhere, in my own interpretation later on, I decided that I liked wearing such "forbidden" items, but that I had to have a certain presence with them that was more on the feminine side. I can remember the first time I saw myself in the mirror with high heels on, I was horrified. I looked absolutely terrible! I vowed never to wear them again, they just weren't for me. And, for the following 15 years, I did little to nothing with it. As life became more stable and more comfortable, I took it up again, this time for real. And I tried to address my concerns about looking terrible, which had mainly to do with posture and gait, and a little bit to do with how the rest of me was dressed. I never entertained any serious thoughts of trying to change my gender or my gender appearance, I just wanted to be cool and graceful.

Such decisions are above my pay grade, and as we've discovered many times, this ain't a democracy, so consensus is irrelevant. I personally do not care about whether the above images are appropriate or not, I just had to give you a good poke in the ribs about them. And yes, we are boring here. And yes, you WILL have fun, dammit! 😆

Yes, the world is blinkered. We are also our own worst enemies in being so fearful of stepping out of line and jeopardising our masculinity. Women will adopt a masculine fashion without a second thought and make it their own. Men would never dare to do the reverse. Like you I fancied a particular style of feminine footwear as a child. In my case I really liked white go-go boots. Oddly enough it didn’t even occur to me, at first, that these were only for girls and I nearly blurted out a desire to have a pair for myself. I don’t recall what alerted me but I was mortified to find I had been hankering for a pair of girls boots. it scared me off for many years

In most of my preschool days, I was socially pushed to feel that I should have been a girl, because of my preferences to only wear the Mary Jane shoes (Sartorial AGP), like these: which I was forced to acknowledge these shoe styles were for girls only without any other explanation or counseling. Later I was told that my preference was a phase that I would eventually grow out of. However, it actually led to my preferences for wearing heel styles, like these:in my elementary school years. Ever since then, these are the only two types and styles of footwear I have really wanted to adorn my appearance. In my teens, I came to the realization that I didn't have to become a girl to wear my footwear preferences, because I saw society had to dictate, promote, and bully people to wear its socially assigned clothes. By researching, I came understand and was made aware of many appareling choices, practices, manipulations, and crossdressing activities through-out history. It's not very comforting to know we live under a system of appareling enslavement in our so-called free world.