Laurieheels

Gee, I feel the sting quite deep here. But I don't care, I write, I type super fast, so it takes me less time to write it than it takes for people to read it, and it should be the reverse, right? A poll like this won't stop me.

My cute pink striped pyjamas look very good on me, thank you. And that is exactly the point about the avatar. I think that I have already killed enough mystery by showing my face and being prolific with posting. I see message threads from people who look like fashion models in the pictures. Inaccessible people who seem to be selling something. I tried to share myself, and really, the goals I have in mind are not going to be achieved through that. I have my personal goal of high heel wearing that I have met. But I think that mysterious persona I sought is nothing more than some memory. Everyone knows a great deal about me, people can e-mail me directly, people can see pictures of me... and as a result, people don't e-mail me, aren't always that receptive to pictures of me (come on, there have been some critical people who instead of being happy for what I was able to show, asked for something different and found flaws) Generally, what is the point of trying to be some sort of goddess type in the high heeled community when it feels very few people care? I am thrilled for the support and response that I do have, but how often do the other people posting talk so openly, or get the critical viewpoint in response? I'm not a drop dead sexy super gorgeous super model type. I'm not some european exotic hottie, or in any way mysterious. And I am not trying to be that in my every day life. But I did wish to maintain some of that here. And I was out to show that despite people sitting on benches or leaning over on chairs, I could actually do these things. Stand in heels, walk in heels, live it as a lifestyle. From flat feet to six inch heels with the ability to walk, standing in heels as high as seven inches, straight legged... Maybe the problem is that I have become the reality, and what people really want is the fantasy. the illusion. The hint that it could be so it can fire their dreams. Not someone who can and does, someone strong willed who takes the fantasy and makes it real in an attempt to show it can be done and keep the whispering voices of doubt focused somewhere else. After all, I only ever posted a picture of me after I was accused of being a fraud, someone spinning a fantasy story. That was a few years ago on Jenny's board before hhplace even existed. Honesty. It seems to have ruined the whole thing. A good, honest girl doesn't get ahead on the internet.

Deafty, don't stop posting. Don't let people be bullies and push you around. Look, if you are concerned, e-mail me, I am more tha happy to help edit (with a light touch) to ensure people don't discourage you. After all, I for one am happy that people take the chance to share a story. Those who make you feel like not posting again need to unplug the keyboards for a bit, I think. Creativity should be allowed to flow, to grow, to just be.

I know I can have any avatar and I can choose something that reflects my own style, but no one thinks of me as a high heeled goddess when I am not on the internet, despite my heel wearing. I am just a girl who likes heels and tries to make people laugh by being silly. I am not sure that people would get all of it since there are a bunch of things about me that have nothing to do with heels, and this is, after all,. a place for the high heeled goddess part of my life. Thus, asking people to give opinions helps tune into the perspectives of this community, and about how I might be seen here as much as how I would like to be seen here. That sounds about right.

I wouldn't spend a cent on buying a pair of ballet boots or anything similar, since I don't like the look and would never wear them anywhere. We all know that. Could I master them? Sure, if given time I could. I keep trying to tell everyone that things are possible if you take the time and do it right. As for the true height of the heels, I measured them, my red 6.5s are real 6.5s, the 7s are real 7s. I don't see why you need to attack me, even in jest. It's quite silly. I get a little cheeky in being happy with my accomplishments so far, and you need to lay on it. I think you're having fun so I play it up a bit, and then you go and spoil it. For shame.

They're only black because it was a web camera and it doesn't do well to pick up the actual colors of the hairs. Ah well. I really like that everyone is participating and voting. So far, #2 and #3 are running very close. Wow.

Time and practice means you can do anything. If you're willing to overcome the obstacle and learn to wear those heigher heels, you can make it.

Today was a day where heels sat in the closet. it's something important to discuss. Serious things that have touched at my heart and got me thinking. So I had to write about this, share, and hopefully touch a few other people as well. Today in Calgary it was time for the CIBC Run for the Cure. CIBC is a bank here in Canada, not one that I am very impressed with, but this is a great cause and great causes need sponsors. I cannot begrudge any company at a moment when they are involved with that. My sister and I volunteered to help out. We were course marshals for the race, along with scores of other people. We were up quite early for a Sunday, and fueled with coffee, we headed downtown to sign in and receive our instructions for helping with something so important. A race to raise money and awareness for breat cancer. And this is not just a marathon for people who run, it is an event for everyone. People touched by cancer in many ways. So as I stood a few blocks from the start, holding a sign that directed those who were doing the 1K walk as their means of participation, I was able to see something incredible. People from all walks of life come together for a common cause. The police motorcycles raced ahead, ensuring the barriers were still in place, and the ignorance of drivers was swiftly crushed to ensure the safety of the participants. And then, a flood of people, all at a jogging pace, all there for a cause. And pinned to many of the white T-shirts given to participants were signs, indicating why people were running. Some had pictures of their loved one, afflicted by this cancer, some just names. One name, or several. Proper names, or just "mom" or "grandma" Some ran for their daughters, with hopes of ensuring they would grow up never having to fear the tragedy brought on by cancer. To see so many names, so many pictures, and then see thousands of people running and walking in support of the survivors, and in memory of those who passed on, it was something that made me feel a sense of wonder and pride as much as sadness. I took pictures. People carrying banners. People with signs. People wearing pink wigs. Groups of people, individuals, all together. And after the lead group of determined runners passed by, people moving at a slow jog or a walk passing along, smiling, talking, celebrating their loves ones. A sea of white T-shirts, a human wave washing over the streets in support of a battle against something frightening. A battle they all wish to win, and have much optimism for. It stirs the emotions to see this, to be a part of it. I am not up to running, I am not good at raising donations, but I do enjoy giving a hand. And there is a reward in knowing you are taking part in something that is more than just raising money or awareness. It is as if people from all over gathered to celebrate the human spirit, and the victories of woman and men over breast cancer. Yes, men can get it too. They don't have breasts in the way women do, they're not producing milk after being pregnant, but they can develop the same type of tumors in that area. There are many types of cancer, and anything that helps solve one form will be a boon to others. To be even a tiny part of such an event feels good. And I needed to share it.

Too many questions, too many messages... Oh, wait a moment. That's fine. Hi! Firefox is allowed to have his fun with the pictures. if it weren't for him I wouldn't have learned to do many of the web page things I can do which allows me to share all of this. Kind of like a partner in crime. e - wuite the contrary, it is just because the whole picture isn't there so you don't see the smile on my face. Gary - I do love those shoes as well, and they're certainly a lot better for wearing to work. Heelfan - Renaissance, huh? What happens when I reach my industrial revolution? RC - the white 5.5s I wear them at home quite a bit, no ankle straps. i don't wear them out often, the last time was with a super long navy blue tank top that fit me more like a slip dress, so no one sees the short pants underneath. Nice for showing off hips and legs from the knee down. htj - thanks for the super compliment. It does illustrate that ther person inside is what matters, something I do agree with. They still see service, but I have no idea where I packed the ankle straps when I moved so I wear them without. S-UK - Well, that is a good one, shows that it is a real girl behind the name on the screen. But at the same time, it gives away a bit too much. You can see darker roots in my hair, I am wearing my pink pyjama top.... Maybe a reprise, after the brown and red in my hair is not showing on the top and looking like black, as well as a different top... hrm. Endless worlds of possibilities. That, I like.

The walking is slow. Having the ability to straighten up while standing in them is the first step, the second is balancing while doing that. The third step, maintaining balance while walking, is something I am still practicing. The whole thing comes down to forming neurons into a pattern and having it become natural. The more one has to think, the slower it is. I have to focus on the balance a lot, and thus I am slow, with smaller steps. As time progresses, my brain will write neural software for walking in such high heels, kind of like an expansion pack if you will, and then I'll be able to go faster until I walk pretty much like I would in lower heels. maybe with a smaller stride, but certainly appearing more fluid.

Home use, costume use... not something that would be very appealing for every day use. I won't go into much in the way of detail as to other opinions.

Thanks, Bob. It was nice to do some shoe pictures in a park before the weather turned cold. Not quite as nice to sink into the ground with those heels. Most of the trees have lost their leaves already. I'll try and post one of just the park with no one in it to show how it can get at some point.

Okay Hoverfly, I'll play along. Find me something with an even higher heel and I will try to master that. And believe me, just to shoot you and your little AH-64 down, I'll do it, too. I go out of my weay to achieve something and share it with everyone, and when I try to take a little bit of pride in it...

I can give advice on some stretches and practicing I did to achieve this. I should write an article about it for posting on Jenny's site, with a copy here.

Well Rob, the first picture I am on a bench, I had to crouch for balance. The second one is actually, well, I am lying down and have the shoes resting on a tree, so I cut and flipped them. Look close and you'll see the leaves and the grass going vertical in the background instead of the horizontal they should be. But the entire picture tells such a different story that doesn't fit in the avatar slot. I can re-do any picture as needed in the proper stance, standing on regular ground, not lying down or anything else.

Hi everyone. This poll is to allow people to help me see if I should get a new avatar.

Since I have expanded to higher heels in my abilities, and shared some pictures, I thought that my tires old avatar of the five and a half inch heels just didn't scream "goddess" enough for me.

So here are three pictures that go with the poll I've posted about this.

They are cut from pictures in the member's section on Jenny's site.

So vote and let's see if we have something new to use for me, or if we need something else!

Raise the water an inch or so and it flies a lot eaier. I would think that to make it a better tease, the water should rise to just above the nipple, but still expose some of the areola (however one spells it). My personal question is "is it artistic, or is it art." If it were porn, the picture's focus would be on something more sexual. This is more erotic than pornographic. And Eroticism is a good thing. Porn is a bad thing. The line in between them is easy to fall across, and bile thumping people not comfortable with their own bodies and the world around them tend to push that line one direction. And then people who feel you can't have morality with self expression push it the other as they try to use shock tactics and claim it as art. I am rambling. I know.

You're welcome

I have shoes like that, and I stand in them with straight legs. Walking will need some more work, but hey, practice is what matters. There are pictures out there in the Everyone and Favourite Pictures forums.

Interesting how people say "suddenly" with regard to wanting or needing more shoes. I always want and need more shoes. Always!

Imagine trying to cross your legs wearing rubber stockings. That would get a lot of attention from the squeaking. A nice black sheer stocking feels nice, looks nice... and hides little flaws like a shaving cut or legs that haven't been shaved for a day or two. Girls have many tricks, but then, many of you probably know them already.

How a photo with jeans down, and one with jeans up? That makes everyone happy for their preferences. As far as an Elvira look, probably not. I'm not endowed in that particular area. Legs are my thing, not breasts. I need to get some more pictures with stockings on, as well. Now that the colder weather is around, it's time to stock up on stockings and wear them a lot more.

Too fetish? Welll... The shoe, not at all. The yellow rubber stocking thing? So far past the edge it can't see it anymore.

Yes, yes you may. I am not sure how gothy it's going to be, I might wish to be more of a sorceress but certainly gothy for the make up. I am sure something can be done for this.

I'll have to admit, I have been quite minimalist about make up the last few months. Foundation, some mascara, lip gloss at best. It's some sort of phase, certainly. I suspect it has to do with not wishing to be up quite so early for work, thus needing a make up regiment that requires less work. With the approach of Halloween and the chance to Goth it up for make up, I might just reverse the trend! I will see about doing a few more pictures on solid ground next weekend, and I will try for more makeup. Bright red pumps, bright red lipstick? Maybe.