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No real escapades to speak of folks, sorry. Didn't really have the time and I think one needs some time to prepare mentally for an escapade. I shouldn't have really said anything but you know, I got all excited! I did manage a short walk (50 yards) in a small park near the river in west London in my LTS black suede wedges but there was no exposure to people which is the real object of the exercise. It made me realise how "exposed" one can feel in these situations and also that maybe I need to think about buying some quiet heels! A bit at a time I think is key to this and a bit of walking in not so obviously femme and quiet shoes would be a good starting point. I haven't started blogging either or updated my gallery although the photos are ready to go. Once I get time to sit down and sort it out, it will be done.
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It's an aweful look! Usually accompanied by a bad walk...Wow. The woman here are killing me today. 3 absolutely BEAUTIFUL pairs of very hi heels.
This is the lowest heel I have worn in over 3 weeks. Its pretty bad. I remember when I
Would die just to wear something this hi. But you know, its not always about the height.
I guess wearing something different plays a part.
One of the guys took a long stare at the toe of my boots yesterday as we were standing
Around talking. My instructor has also taking some looks as he is testing me. I am
Usually standing and he is sitting. Nothing said yet.....to me.
I saw a girl yesterday in low hi heeled open toe boots that she has flat wore
Out. Not sure how she did not twist her ankles because both bowed out as she
Walked. You could see the boots twist and flex from how she walked. This girl
Should not b allowed to wear open toed shoes. 3 of her toes stucck out past the
Shoe like and eagle clutcching a dead rat.
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I voted. I wear heels privately and I don't purge. This is the situation as it stands and how I intend to keep it. The rest will follow in good time but I have learnt to accept the fact that I love heels and will do so for ever and there's nothing I can do about it and neither do I want to. So there!Good thinking Sleekheels - it'll be interesting to see the results of this.
Now, I'm not going to vote just yet. Seeing as I've just made the realisation that purging has happened so much and that I'm trying to stop it and I'm working on gaining the confidence to step outside in my shoes, I'm not going to vote just yet. I want to see if I can make a difference to my urge to purge (I should've been a rapper with rhymes like those..) and that might take some time! Purges usually happen between once a year or so...
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Funny!You've got to consider the potential buyers who may not know how to use shoes.
Why is it that there always seems to be loads of shoes i want when I have got no money?! Ebay is particularly bad for throwing these into the equation.
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Not at the moment but I have in the past had 2 or 3 pairs of the same shoe but in different colours.
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I've owned a few pairs of white stilettos in the past - in fact, the first time I ever "exposed" myself to a friend was in white 4" pointy stilettos. She was great but immediately assumed I was gay and persisted with it to the point I got pissed off and have hardly seen her since! Anyway, back on topic, I love the look but it's not one I like to rock.
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What happened then JeffB?Indeed! I became something of an unintentional celebrity, but my fifteen seconds in the limelight was thankfully brief. HA!
I had an escapade of sorts yesterday morning after the party I attended on Saturday night - another "dutch courage" fuelled one like the one before christmas. Got home at around 8 am and couldn't get into my heels quick enough! I went out in my red pointy pumps, my black boots and then the blue peep toe sling backs all whilst wearing slim blue jeans and a basic light t-shirt type top (of the fem variety - I am experimenting with clothes now too!).. oh, and a denim jacket I got from Next. I was out and about for around 2 hours and narrowly missed my neighbour loading his car for work when returning for a change of footwear. It was just great being out in them and I know I was seen by a few people I passed as I strolled around the neighbourhood.
I also took delivery of some new clothes which I ordered from Newlook as I'm looking for ways to dress that will work well with my heels. Amongst these clothes was a pair of boot cut long jeans (£7.50!!) which will no doubt get used for my first real heeling escapade. The black suede wedges are currently top of the list for this excursion.
I'm not really counting these post party excursions as genuine excursions as I have no fear when I'm all fired up like that and I always have a feeling of regret afterwards (although this time it's not so bad) and dread going outside again for a day or 2 afterwards. I want to get that kind of pleasure from doing it normally and without having to get so smashed but it will come with time - I am determined!
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Nice one Logjam - glad you enjoyed your first external excursion!
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We've had jaunts and adventures and now we have got escapades! It's defined in the dictionary as: an act or incident involving excitement, daring, or adventure. Rather apt, don't you think?
Anyway, I haven't actually had any yet! Sorry, but I know there's some coming up and seeing as I've enjoyed reading others so much I thought I'd get a thread rolling. So I have a job down south next weekend and a hotel room to myself for 2 nights so I'm gonna take some heels and depending what the lay of the land is like (i.e. if it's a bit rough then I'm not going heeling!) and then I think I might take myself off on a little outdoors heeling expedition. It all depends on when I've actually got to work but there's a plan to do a bit..
I also have got to go down to London to sort out visas for a trip to Japan. They take 3 days to process so I plan to visit family and friends and go heeling in London in between. I am dead excited especially about the London trip but I'm not there yet and nerves may get the better of me. There's a new air of confidence about me at the moment though - the trips out to empty rubbish etc in flats have been more frequent and I'm thinking about it less each time although I still haven't encountered anyone whilst doing it.
So sorry about the false start but I feel excited and wanted to share with you all my plans. I'll post all future heeling escapades in this thread for anyone wishing to follow. I'm also thinking about starting a blog to document random thoughts and observations on the matter - as much for my own benefit as for anyone wishing to read them. I'm off to a house warming tonight consisting of close friends and I'm hoping I can bring the subject of my heels up seeing as it's at the forefront of my mind right now but no pressure!
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"like"Oh dear, I know we all have things that bring us comforting memories (I'm sure even Amanda has memories of Butterscotch Angel Delight), but are we really comfortable with anything called MiracleWhip?
I've never had a miracle whip but very much like hellmans...
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I used to have these mid heel pointy shoes from Long Tall Sally, in black and red, that were possibly the most devine shoes I have ever worn but they went in a purge some time ago. Unfortunately, LTS don't make them anymore but I keep my eye on Ebay for them...
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Wrecks the heels too!Even worse, having a heel tip get caught in a crack in the sidewalk and it's nearly pulled off. Damned frustrating!
The life of Brian springs to mind...What bugs me a guys in this forum passing themselves off as women. You know who you are.
People in heels who blatantly cannot walk in them!
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Well done on your fist public heeling! I was thinking about doing a similar thing - going to London for a couple of days and doing some anonymous heeling. I think it'd be a great way to get your confidence up before showing friends and going more public in your home town. I actually have a trip there planned in a week or so after which case I'll be reporting back...
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Don't get me started on commercial advertising. I refuse to watch commercial TV on account of the fact that I hate having products rammed down my throat every 10 or 15 mins when all I want to do is watch whatever it is I want to watch. And where do they find the people who come up with the ideas for them? A talking mere cat that makes a funny squeaking noise selling insurance? COME ON!!!! But the classifieds, well that can be very funny. I thought the baby boiler one was hilarious and alsheels one sounds like a very bad translation. "I can a speaka heengleesh. I learrrn it frrrrom a boooke!"
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Must remember to proof read...Good thinking Sleekheels - it'll be interesting to see the results of this.
Now, I'm not going to vote just yet. Seeing as I've just made the realisation that purging has happened so much and that I'm trying to stop it and I'm working on gaining the confidence to step outside in my shoes, I'm not going to vote just yet. I want to see if I can make a difference to my urge to purge (I should've been a rapper with rhymes like those..) and that might take some time! Purges usually happen between once a year or so...
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Good thinking Sleekheels - it'll be interesting to see the results of this. Now, I'm not going to vote just yet. Seeing as I've just made the realisation that purging has happened so much and that I'm trying to stop it and I'm working on gaining the confidence to step outside in my shoes, I'm not going to vote just yet. I want to see if I can make a difference to my urge to purge (I should've been a rapper with rhymes like those..) and that might take some time! Purges usually happen between once a year or so...
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Yeah, I think so it's cool to. I certainly wasn't a bag of pure confidence hence me not quite getting across the exact nature of what it is and why I do it but as you've said before, it's one step at a time. And I'm finally starting to feel like it doesn't really matter - people are much less judgemental or disapproving than one might have originally thought. There's literally years of me feeling shameful and embarrassed about it so it may take time to shift completely and I don't want to run before I can walk because if I trip it's gonna hurt.that's cool! My friends dig my funky crossgendering styles. Although they will never dress like that themselves! But they totally respect me. I showed up in a bar with 4.5" pumps and they said that was the coolest thing they have ever seen. Then again, I look like a girl most of the time!
Ashley.
I am also thinking more about women's clothes as well as shoes these days. I have experimented in the past but it's always been a bit of a rush job, not really putting much thought in so the results have been, well, crap! It's not so much that I'm bang into dressing like a woman but more about wearing something that suits "ladies" shoes more. I have some nice slim jeans (the ones I'm wearing in most of the shots in my gallery) and a nice t-shirt type top from Next. Oh and a mid length skirt from Dorothy Perkins. So we shall see how that one develops. Also, I am tall and as with large size shoes, tall women's clothes are not as common place.
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Nice to see how well you are progressing and inspiring how much time and effort you have put in even in face of adversity! Personally, I've given up on the idea of learning to make them by myself and I'm looking into courses as I still love the idea of making my own heels. It won't be for a while as I'm a bit skint at the moment. I really hope that your final product is everything that you dreamed of. You deserve it for all the time and effort you've put in!
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A little development: Whilst working at a club last night a guy I know who is a mutual friend of the guy who saw me during the post xmas party heelathon came in and was asking about it. Word has spread it would seem! So I found myself openly admitting to everything that was said although he did refer to it is "drag" which has gay connotations and I failed to get across to him that it's all about the heels. I plan to meet up with him again this week so I can give him the full story. Either way, he said he thought it was great and "loves all that shit!" Gettin' there!
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Don't get me wrong Pumpcat - I have no intention of giving it all up. I was just expressing what was going through my head at the time and looking for reasons as to why these purges keep happening and also ways of making it stop because it is not going away!
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Throw them "out"! Throw "up" suggests you vommited them which sounds funny but is also ridiculous!
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All this talk of purging and guilt and I'm sat here, not feeling like a purge is coming, but definitely feeling a bit.. um.. frustrated shall we say... It's too much of that feeling that makes me feel fed up with it and want to give it all up! I just want "closure" on it - to feel happy and content within myself. It's like being trapped. I want to feel accepted by people who are close to me for in what I do and so I think the only way forward is to start talking about it to those friends whom I know will see it for what it is. Anyway, my ramblings aside, thanks everyone for your input. Once again, I find I am not alone in the cycle of feelings that goes with the mental battle of coming to terms with this "thing".
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- What first attracted you to high heels? - Not sure really. I just remember seeing some one day and thinking "wow! I need to get into them!" When I was about 16 I used to "borrow" some from a friends mum who kept her shoes in an unlocked porch at the front of their house.
- When did you first wear a pair? - I think when I was about 16 but it's hard to gauge because I never bought pair until about the age of 20 and even then they were a bit too small. Before that, I'd get a pair that were too small, cut open the toe box and then tape them up again with my foot in them so that they fit!
- How do you feel when you wear heels? - A hard thing for me to desribe but I'd say I felt like I am supposed to be wearing them!
- Do you have a favorite brand? Favorite store? Reasons? - It changes. I used to love Barratts shoes because they made quality heels, great styles at very reasonable prices. Not any more although they turn up on ebay now and again. Long Tall Sally do some great shoes that are very comfortable and well fitting but no so high.
- Have you worn heels in public? Why or why not? - Not yet. Still not got the courage but it's coming!
- Men in relationships, are your partners supportive? - n/a
- What's been your best heel wearing experience? Your worst? - At the moment, the best heeling experience is simply feeling comfortable in them and not feeling like a wierdo. I'm not a public heeler yet but I am still plagued by feelings of guilt and shame but these are getting much less so just having that content feeling is the best. As for the worst, getting pulled over (not arrested but questioned about what I was up to) by the police at 3am taking a walk in heels whilst "heavily refreshed" - that was pretty rubbish. I have always protected myself against bad experiences but not going out in public during the day but I hope to change that.
- What do you think society thinks of men wearing heels? How do you wish it would change? How long do you think it will take? - People are always suspicious of anything out of the norm. I know people who dress in a bit more of an "eccentric" style and they get grief too. I always have respect for anyone who dresses in unusual ways probably because of my own desires to wear heels publicly. There's is a desire amongst the masses to fit in and be part of the gang and also to be "cool" and wear all the "now" fashions, something fuelled by mass media, and I don't think that helps in societies approach to anyone wearing something a bit different, be it heels, ladies clothes (on men) or anything considered eccentric. How long will it take? Who knows - sooner rather than later, I hope! It took a long time for women to get to wear mens clothes but there was an entire movement behind it and ours is slowly gathering pace as this site proves.
- Do you personally know other men who wear heels? - Nope - only on HHP.
- Tell us anything else that might be useful for an insightful article about men wearing heels - To anyone who thinks it looks weird or unusual, remember that so did women wearing trousers at one time. And to any men who've been wearing heels for some time, it doesn't. It's perfectly normal.
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Thanks Larry! Interesting reading in that article. I think that religion has a lot to answer for but I'm not going there now and I respect that many people get a lot from it so for them it's a good thing.Howdy,
Oh, ya, the purge, quit, realize this is not going away, get more shoes was a pretty active part of my earlier heeling experience. It turns out that this experience is pretty normal for those of us who have yet to come to celebrate our unique passion. I cannot speak too heavily as I am still pretty young on the celebrate my heels part of this path. Heck, just a year ago I had a crappy psychologist send me way off my path regarding my heeling.
I just recently read an artical about cross dressing and the LDS church. It looks like the purge, quit, realize that this is not going away, get more stuff is also pretty common in that world too. I have posted a link below.
All I can say is that the more I appreciate this unique interest and the more open that I become with it the less tendency there is to purge. In fact the only reason that I get rid of shoes now is to make room for new ones. When we move into a place with more storage then that will be less of an issue.
Best wishes on your journey with heels,
Larry
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And thanks, the adventures will come in good time I'm sure. As I'm sure you understand from when you first started heeling - it takes a bit of courage to get started plus time and headspace to pluck it in the first place. It's inspiring to read about your jaunts.