Julietta

I feel a little weird writing this really because it is so personal, but due to the PM's I keep receiving regarding my best friend and myself I feel I need to do this. If you are expecting any more posts with regards to my friends "Coming Out" then there probably won't be. If you are confused then believe me you are not half as confused as I am and if any of you can shed some light on this then feel free to enlighten me. I have known him over a year now. The instant we met we hit it off. We were completely on the same wave length even down to liking stupid things like liking the same flavoured ice cream. We had such a brilliant open friendship, so much so he trusted me enough to tell me of his dress preference. He started of slowly and gradually opened up as the relationship went on. I have fully supported him throughout, any of you know that have read my postings that it is the person and how they relate to me that is important not what they are into. Maybe I was too enthusiastic when it should have been taken at a slower pace. I don't know........ We have been in touch with each other nearly every day since meeting, other than holidays and when either of us can't. We, until recently when his relationship broke down, were both in relationships. Mine is not an easy one as not only is bound by a child, and although over by years, is going through the legal system to finally be sorted. It is an abusive relationship (so when Susan the original talks of abusive men in heels I can say first hand that a man doesn't need heels to be nasty). That is by the by as I am a pretty happy person and won't let anyone bring me down, I see it as his problem not mine, but my daughter is another thing. Anyway enough of that. Something I still can't get used to though, is his silences as it makes me feel insecure and I think that is a man/woman thing but although he thinks I'm manic when I air this out I feel he is manic too as he goes off into a kind of sulky silence. It's as though he can't tell me what is going on in case I blow a fuse when it is his evasiveness that makes me uncomfortable. I mean why can't a man say to a woman "Can't talk now am busy/going away/working" I need some space etc. I do. This is our only blip really - was or was it? Is this a man thing woman thing? The reason it baffles me more is that he said he believed anything can be solved with communication yet he forgets to communicate at these times. So here it is. From my last posting "Coming Out Diary 2#" you saw that we had the most fantastic day. He said we had a fantastic day too. The thing is, one thing led to another and I ended up staying...... To say we slept well was an understatement. We both had a restless night. My fear being that our friendship would be ruined. Both of us felt guilt. Me for my daughter and he for his ex girlfriend. I left and instead of reassuring me went into one of his silences.... I had the odd returned text which confused me as he was sending me such mixed signals. Eventually he told me that he felt guilty, felt a hypocrite and that I needed to sort out my life and that he still wanted to be my friend also if circumstances were different he'd come pick me up and we would escape into our world. Although I thanked him for being candid, I still felt....... well rejected would be a good word and feeling, so thought that he needed releasing from this relatinship sent him a long text telling him my ideals, acknowledging that they were beyond him and that becaused I loved him was letting him go. Then told him if he ever wanted to be with someone who loved him for who he really is to get in touch once he had got over his ghosts. I know this sounds nuts but we are kind of like the characters in "When Harry met Sally". We have known each other for over a year and know a lot about each other, more than other people know about us, where as normally people sleep with each other then get to know each other. We are both not people who sleep around........... I just don't know what happened all I really know is that I have lost the best friend I have ever had and now I feel weird, lost, in pain and very confused. I can't go into a clothes shop without thinking "oh *** would love this" or send a text airing out a thought I've just had, or to chat on the phone and have a laugh and I won't have shopping outings or makeup sessions to look forward to. It's just the weirdest most uncomfortable thing I have ever gone through. I guess the moral of this story is: Do Not Sleep With Your Best Friend because it will end in and with 2 disasterous relationships under my belt I think I will heed my own warning in future. Thanks for listening Jxx

maggots

left stocking badly

Am disappointed, guess my imagination was getting carried away with itself, am hooked on Francis' shoes at present. I was expecting something a little more exciting. Those dangly paddlocks look daft but I do love the shoes though. I wouldn't say no to a pair minus the paddlocks though:D

Jay they are great. Wear them and enjoy them you will be fine

Rhubarb

That is nice Suz

she slipped and

Ooooops - what if I said it was such a good one that I thought it was worth repeating????

No I know what you mean. There is a real feel good factor to feeling and hearing that familiar noise as the heel touches and leaves the sandal. God I sound like a fanatic here I think I need serious help lol

I remember seeing a website on these somewhere. I can't remember if they were expensive though. They are something else though. Sure you just want them for that one occassion though Squirrel?

Rocket

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Thanks guys.

Francis can't wait for your next episode with the:

Red Shoe Diaries

Well it's like I said with the kitten heel thing, never say never. I saw them and thought I'd like to see what they looked like on - guess what? Loved them and they look really nice and are comfy so had to keep them didn't I really?

I quite like being the owner of the click click

Two women are new arrivals at the pearly gates and are comparing stories on how they had died. First woman-- "I froze to death." Second woman -- "You froze to death - how horrible!" First woman-- "Well, it wasn't so bad. After I quit shaking from the cold, I began to get warm and sleepy, and finally died a peaceful death. What about you?" Second woman-- "I died of a massive heart attack. I suspected that my husband was cheating, so I came home early to catch him in the act. But instead, I found him all by himself in the den, watching TV." First woman -- "So what happened?" Second woman- - "I was so sure there was another woman there somewhere, that I started running all over the house looking. I ran up into the attic and searched and down to the basement. Then I went through every closet and checked under every bed. I kept this up until I had looked everywhere, and finally became so exhausted that I just keeled over with a heart attack and died." First woman--"Too bad you didn't look in the freezer -- we'd both still be alive."

I prefer micha's example purely because I think they would suit my feet more than the others and the plats aren't as severe.

Squirrel said

Julietta, I would hardly say pair 2 had a platform! That's nothing compared to what's on my 5in loafers, and they're nothing compared to some fetish stuff!

LOL I told you I wasn't into plats so they are huge to me Squirrel but the other ones I bought are even bigger for me and they are:

http://www.argosadditions.co.uk/additions/product.asp?brand=additions&cat%5Fid=8125&zone%5Fid=∏%5Fid=177298&seq=3&page=&OrderBy=&sManufacturer=Raid&nShopByBrandCat=&offer%5Fid=177298Z&extra=&mscs_sid=S90SGD8KD17A8MR23GLRXQ8WMNN5BVS6

and I can see your whiskers twitching now

Oooh ditto that Azraelle. Squirrel those whiskers are twitching again

Yamyam said

I was just wondering. I did a similar exercise at work with the old rhyme about "Monday's child...". We ended up discussing it for days!

How about we start a thread on that one then Yamyam. How does that poem go again? Monday's child is full of grace, Tuesday's child is fair of face........ can't remember the rest

to admiring glances

Opera

It's not a stupid question I had to ask the same thing as I hadn't a clue but it stands for: Beautiful Wife

Love the look with the red leather trousers Francis and would just like to say they are brilliant pics. Can't wait for the next episode of:

Red Shoe Diaries

PS Need help here have only managed to either make RSD red or large but not both, how do I make both? Have tried various combinations but can only seem to get either or

Francis, how about giving us a mini Laurie style red shoe training diary then, no warts crutches and all?